First let me thank you for sending that message of apology
when I least expected it from a stranger like you.
You didn’t ask me to stay,
but you effortlessly gave me reasons
that made me choose to stay, anyway.
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I appreciate that you got out of your way to send me chocolates say you were sorry.
You didn’t really have to, but at that time I really felt your sincerity.
For the first time I was excited to take the risk into the relationship
and turn it into a possibility.
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So now I am writing this piece to let you know
the smallest reasons that made me love you more today —
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For calling me the first time to wish our families well,
which greeted my new year with a very big smile on my face.
For the butterflies in my stomach that make it difficult to sleep at night
and wake me up even before the sun gets up.
For reminding me to focus despite the times I want to talk all day
And for encouraging me to do better in what I do each day.
For sharing your memories and stories through music,
And bearing with me for several times about the bug in the listen together feature of Spotify music.
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For being so thoughtful to stay with me as I waited in the vaccination line,
For answering all my ‘get to know you’ random questions with sincerity,
For making it comfortable to share my feelings and thoughts openly,
and for all the times you told me that you do understand me.
For making it up to me even though you fall asleep
in less than a minute after your last reply at night. (di nagrrhyme pero gusto ko lang isingit)
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I know I get needy and tend to overthink at times
But I thank you that I don’t have to hide that from you
And that I don’t have to feel bad when I message you in the middle of nowhere
just to tell you that I miss you.
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I told you many times that I felt like this was all a dream.
But I want to think and I am praying that this is a dream that we’ll both be living.
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These are just snippets of the many things I’ve been writing down
During those days when the reply you’d get from me was a simple “thank you”. (wink wink)
But the list goes on and words are not enough to say
how and why I love you even more each day.
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Happy V-day.
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(P.S. maraming na edit out sa piece na to, di ko maisingit, pang next time na lang ;))